So my dad officially met my mom’s boyfriend the other day and the world didn’t explode. Granted we were out in public and my dad was too sick to talk a lot, but still given how awkward I thought it’d be this played out too much like a preachy metaphor for life. I don’t know (because I’m not psychic) what changes you guys are going through at the moment, but things with me are both moving forward and yet staying pretty much the same.
Still no job for those of you wondering about that. I also still can’t drive, am currently single, and have no idea what hair products work best for my curl type. However, as I mentioned in my Moonlight post, I told my mom I’m bisexual (which has not increased my dating odds 🙃), my mother’s boyfriend (and possibly his son) are going to be moving in, and I actually know the answer to the question what do I want to do with my life. Spoiler alert: I want to tell stories. I’m still figuring out which medium I prefer to do that with, but it’s a start.
The funny thing about all of this is that, while I do consider myself open minded, as I’ve stated several times before I’m still freaked out by change. Someone once told me they couldn’t picture me with a boyfriend and at the moment they said it I agreed. Of course later on my friend made me realize that was an insensitive/shitty thing to tell someone and I got annoyed, but the point is, as a visual person part of the fear is that I don’t have a concrete idea of what my life’s going to look like. The unknown frustrates me for that reason.
I talk about being jobless quite a bit, but I have had a job before (albeit part time, but still money is money). I’ve just never had a career before and up until now I couldn’t answer when people asked me what I wanted to do with my life. Now, I know I’m not popular, never have been, and I don’t anticipate ever being famous (which I’m not really into) or rich, but I do have a better idea of where I want to go. Eventually I’m sure I’ll get a part time job again and spend my time focusing on my creative pursuits.
Everything else is still up in the air. I’ll probably learn to drive eventually, according to a Facebook quiz I’m going to find true love this year, and there are now more products for black hair than ever. The only thing I can say I’m not happy about is the fact that I know have to actually close the bathroom door/ have to be dressed pretty much all the time. Living in a female only household isn’t something I’ve taken for granted, but I am going to miss it.
As usual stay informed and on Wednesday I’ll recommend more junk. Hopefully the weather’s not too bad tomorrow.
***Featured image: my art!